Sink or Swim

Life will allow you to sit down and float through if that's what you choose to do. Your morals and values are what determine your moves. 

The Vessa Project was created out of genuine concern for people like me. The ones that "care too much" and "talk too loud". The ones who really want to leave the world a better place than they found it. The ones who show up to their job and treat it as a priority versus a paycheck. The ones who have struggled to make it this far in life and have found themselves in survival mode for the better part, or majority, of it. 

So here's the question: How could something that you once so badly wanted... turn into the biggest tragedy in your life?

This question can apply to so many things and really, all aspects of life. Marriage and Divorce. Pregnancy and Miscarriage. Love and Hate. Career and Work.

I am a perception based person and always working towards evolution in my mindset and viewpoints. I try to be the optimist and see the good in all. The lessons instead of the curse. The opportunity to play in the puddles after the storm... Sometimes, it's hard to see that in the midst of the storm though. You have to stay afloat and keep from drowning and sometimes seek shelter and stay away from the windows. 

I have had my share of dark days but the one thing that has never changed is my ability to show up. Adapting and overcoming have been some of my strongest skills in life but it gets tiring. 

Back to the question. The current dilemma is what happens when you reach your goals and they meet expectations, then one day, something changes and it all falls apart... You choose to grow. You can stay in the same spot and wither and fade but the reality is, you only have this one life. Why stay unhappy? Why settle? Why stay "safe" and "comfortable" in things not meant for you? 

This is a hard conversation to have with yourself and within yourself but this is where you find growth. Back to marking goals off... successful enough right? but no. You get where you want to be, you make life what you want it... just to figure out there is another plan and YOU have to figure it out. 

It sucks when your dreams and goals finally become reality to then go into the cycle where they become history. Letting go is hard and not always pleasant but peace... peace is more valuable. It's more valuable than that marriage you forced. It's more valuable than the life you couldn't save, even though you so badly wanted. It's more valuable than that place of work, that means more to you than you ever will to it. Peace is one of the biggest accomplishments you will ever have in this life and finding peace requires letting go. 

Letting go of all the things you can't change. Letting go of all the hurt you've felt. Letting go of all the things you've learned in this life. It requires a sense of death and rebirth and the only person who can change this life is you. Death is tragic but sometimes it's also where you find peace. 

*The reference of death in this post is not the physical form. This post is not intended to encourage thoughts of self harm in any form or fashion. If you or someone you know are struggling with these thoughts, please reach out 988 Lifeline*